The grieving process has been a difficult one…. mostly disbelief that one you love is gone…. anger… it has been strong … not wanting my sister to leave me so soon has taken so much out of me…
Facing the reality…. its not so good….
I am not sure it has hit me quite yet… the pain is unbearable though …. when at times it does sink in….. knowing that she wont be coming back… wont walk in the door… wont smile at me or hug me… watching as life goes on ….. realizing you have to go on with it … not wanting to …..
My sister was well loved as was apparent by the friends that stopped in to say goodbye …
We will release her ashes in the ocean on her birthday weekend in November …. we will throw her one hell of a party and send her around the world with smiles and laughter and tears…. as it should be… those who loved her most will be with her…
I am closing this post with some beautiful quotes that I found in some of my sisters belongings… there are many and I will share them from time to time with my friends …. I thank all of you for being there for me … for bringing me comfort during such a difficult time…… it has been so appreciated
In honor of “Bootsie” ….
“ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU HAVE WITHIN YOU THE STRENGTH … THE PATIENCE…. AND THE PASSION TO REACH FOR THE STARS… TO CHANGE THE WORLD”
“DANCE AS THOUGH NO ONE IS WATCHING…. LOVE AS YOU HAVE NEVER BEEN LOVED BEFORE….. LIVE AS THOUGH HEAVEN IS ON EARTH”
“THERE ARE SOME SOULS ON THIS EARTH THAT JUST SEEM TO SHINE A LITTLE BRIGHTER… ITS NOT BECAUSE THEY’VE BEEN LEFT TO BURN IN PEACE AND QUIET ….(I THINK) …. ITS BECAUSE THEY’VE BEEN STIRRED AND POKED AND PRODDED…. THE FIRE GROWS AND GLOWS BECAUSE OF THE BEAUTIFUL STRUGGLE THEY’RE IN …. THE FLAME GETS A LITTLE HOTTER … THE HEART A LITTLE STONGER AND THE SOUL SO VERY … VERY … BRIGHT” �
This last is one that was given to my father when my mother passed …. he carried it in his wallett until he went to be with her …. I now carry it in mine … I think it truly says it all …
“THE MELODY THAT THE LOVED ONE PLAYED UPON THE PIANO OF YOUR LIFE WILL NEVER BE PLAYED QUITE THAT WAY AGAIN…. BUT WE MUST NOT CLOSE THE KEYBOARD AND ALLOW THE INSTRUMENT TO GATHER DUST … WE MUST SEEK OUT OTHER ARTISTS OF THE SPIRIT … NEW FRIENDS WHO GRADUALLY WILL HELP US TO FIND THE ROAD TO LIFE AGAIN … WHO WILL WALK THAT ROAD WITH US”
Joshua L Lierman
“peace of mind”
Rest well sweet sister …